A new day,a new live and a new friend

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2011-02-21T19:20:00.000-08:00

今天一起身，顿时感觉我的生活失去了方向，发现我都浑浑噩噩地度过每一天。这种感觉越来越强烈，自从我辞了这份戏院的工。

我辞了这份工主要的原因是因为做得很累，但薪水却那么一丁点儿，好像连吃都不够，最主要的原因是因为他们的系统很不稳定，随时都会换，所以造成很多活动都不能参加。如果是你的话，你会不会做这份工呢？

我知道中五毕业生刚出来是没有资格去要求找到一份很好的工，但最起码都要薪水够用，过得去自己嘛。回想起来从这一次的经验我学了不少东西，学会了工作里面的东西，也学了工作里的人际关系，更学会了要争取自己应该要的东西。

在做这份工的期间，我也喜欢上一个人。虽然我最终还是得不到她，但她让我发现原来我是多么的纳闷，没情趣。在爱情里，我还算是婴儿，很幼稚。我很谢谢她给我这个机会让我了解我自己，让我知道原来我还没本事拥有一个恋人，继续努力吧！

现在我开始担心我的前途了，四个字来形容“前途茫茫”。转眼之间我们的成绩就要出来了，看到我朋友的STPM成绩那么优越，开始有点后悔自己没有好好念书，希望我的成绩能好看一点。还好我还有机会，现在应该快点定下一个目标，我想我应该是有这个能力去达成的。

我有一个不知算不算只能是个梦想的志愿，就是读到PHD，做research的。似乎好像离我现在的成绩差得好像天与地。所以我想只能是个梦想罢了。我可能会读engineering，比较实际，也比较有出路，但我好像不是很有兴趣在这方面。没办法啊，要生活就得这样。问题是我不知连engineering都能不能读的上。

不知哪来的灵感，让我写了这么多东西，还是第一次咧，哈哈。其实我很感谢上苍给了我那么多东西，如果不好好利用，就浪费了，我每次做东西不成功原因是我没信心，和没恒心，还有太急进，所以要从这里好好修练。我没本事要改变整个人生，但我有权选择我要过的生活，我要对自己负起100%责任，放开自己，接受然后改变成自己想要的人生。谢谢您。

一块玉石为什么要努力地学习当一块石头呢？

2011-02-20T19:35:00.000-08:00

一块玉石为什么要努力地学习当一块石头呢？

在玉石还未被发掘时是没有用处的，但当看到石头被人用时，自己却想要像石头一样被人用。

石头是很多，容易被发现，但玉石却寥寥无几，是很珍贵的东西，不是所有人都能用，所以玉石以为自己没有用。是不是觉得玉石很傻？为何不去学习做玉石,学会等待别人发掘再不然就自己发掘然后让自己发光发亮。

Wake up pls!

2011-01-19T05:11:00.000-08:00

Today feel very moody..actually i very easy to moody wan.Really wan to scold myself,why so care about people's comment,people just say something bad about me then i will very down whole day...

Many things i wan scold myself.First,always comment people this not good that not nice,but when people comment me and i cannot accept so useless.Second,everytime think like myself very cool,very smart,but actually is very stupid and ordinary.

Except that,i still very straight forward until step people's tail also donno...always think that i am the greatest wan...pui...you always think that you very extraordinary?always think that every people like you? o0o pls go slp and think carefully,wat you worth for people?go watch the mirror see who are you?don come out here to throw the face...

If you want to become a people.pls learn more and don gao gao...and don talk too much but do more...Why you are so xiao qi...Pls la,be more mature...ok?

A year pass by...

2011-01-09T20:22:00.000-08:00

Just listening new year song and got the new year feeling,that mean one year pass again.Living in this earth about 17years,wat have i do?have i contribute to anyone or to this world?

Are we live in this world just for ourself?i feel very useless cause i have do nth but just always do wrong,wasting the time in online,slacking,playing.But even i try study more and more to gain more knowledge but still not statifaction.

I know i am too greed and impatient,for my standard,atcually i do well but when compare to people i always use people standard to campare myself and finally i will very down.

This will happen because i no confident,thats why i always need to campare with people to gain affirmation from other people.But i donno how to gain the confident,i even doubt myself.

I hope can stable myself while the time and age pass by.And i try to hold my aim to contribute to this world so not waste my life in this turn of life.

错觉？

2011-01-03T06:22:00.000-08:00

那种感觉又在来了，可能是我一直以来都没有突破这一关，所以一直的重复着。每次刚开始时都对那人没有兴趣。但她好像故意要让我喜欢她，然后当我对她开始有感觉时不是发现她对我没有东西或是跟别人比较要好，难道这是我的错觉？所以每次我要就是放弃，要就是假装不在乎。我不明白为什么有些人可以那么乐观看待这些事，但我不能，我太不成熟了。可能人家对我没有感觉，只是我自作多情罢了，人家对我好一点就误会人家喜欢我。虽然我觉得我有一定的条件，但不是很多人喜欢我，因为我选择跟别人走不同的路，很难让人接受。我现在要做的东西就是不管是美还是不美，对我好还是不好，我都当她是我朋友，不然只会让我自寻烦恼。我觉得自己很自私，从头到尾只是我，我，我，从来没想过别人是怎样的感受，所以没有人会真正去听我说什么，需要检讨一下。。。

原来。。。

2010-12-29T07:53:00.000-08:00

好久没有进来这里了，现在虽然很累，但我还是要试试看全能说的有没有效。最近我才发现我能有我自己的感觉，但接着下来的却是发现了很多自己的短处，不知是好还是坏。好是因为我觉得我是正常的，不好是因为我原来不能承受很多东西比我想象还要差。我不知是不是因为我害怕别人怎样看我。好，我承认我非常在意别人怎样看我。。。怕到连这没人看的部落格也不敢写。我很恨自己为什么自己常常没事找事做，没事找事想，对不起请原谅我。我现在认为我是因为放不下很多东西，结果才会自寻烦恼，比如我放不下自己物理上的东西，我想要赚多一点钱然后享受，但是又不能承受压力，一直在那边发牢骚。。当我允许我自己有情绪，有能力抗拒不满，不爽还是累。才发现原来我是那么的脆弱和无助。到底我是不是正常的。我真希望我是正常的，但又不要跟普通人一样，但我越要不一样，我就越普通，有时甚至连普通人有的东西我都没有。。。我还有很多东西写但现在不由得我继续，明天又要赶来赶去，不知几时才能不用把所有时间放在赚钱。。。忘了这些吧，明天还有新的东西学。希望我的这些烦恼能在这里消失。。。

My symphony band's life

2009-07-16T02:45:00.000-07:00

Is me again,my English is improved a little,so i think i like to use English to write.I have joined the school symphony band about seven month already,it was many activity especially in holiday,i have choose the percussion and i was very enjoyed every training,however the more closer the event or competition for those senior,the less activity of our junior class,this is because the school was no continue hire a coach with a reason "the coach do nth in the activity".But they don't know that the coach is important to us(junior),our standard is dropped gradually.Yes,there already got two teacher to teach us,but they are more concentrate in senior.Normally we got three classes,symphony,jazz,and our junior class,the two teacher teach symphony and jazz band,and the coach teach the junior.But now left the two teacher...so that they no time to train us.So how could we improve?one day the coach no come back,we will not improve.But fortunately i have know many new friend in the band,they are very kind,but the other(mostly) i don't know why they are so self-esteem and i no join with them.I have think(just think only) that i would like to join the school choir if the situation still no change,because i also like to sing,and also i can see...her...hehe

我的诗--地球

2009-07-16T02:09:00.000-07:00

My Chinese teacher was given us chance to 写诗,and i have write one.So i write out to share with you all...

有个星球，
它，
有高山深海，
高山野岭，深海浅滩，
有白天黑夜，也有春夏秋冬，
特别的是有着宇宙中最有趣及最神秘的东西，
那就是生命！
此星球正是地球。

地球，
它，提供我们居住环境，
鸟语花香，百花齐放，
它，也提供了我们无限的欢乐，
这一切切是多么的美好啊！

但，
地球里，
有种生物，自称万物之灵，
有着自私，贪婪的心，
以特别的方式
回报地球。

地球，
给我们青山绿水，
我们还它黑烟酸雨，乌山污水，
把海水染得五颜六色，
把山林剪的凹凸不平。

但，
它毫无怨言，
继续保护我们，
而我们，
却怨声载道，怨天尤人，
这些行为，
是万物之灵应该做的吗？
不！

一切的改变都从人开始，
解铃还需系铃人，
所以就必须由人了结！
人尽其才，团结一致
还宇宙一个美丽的地球！
还地球一个美丽的环境！
还子孙一个美好的未来！

I use about two days to complete this...still ok right?

learning...

2009-05-07T06:46:00.000-07:00

After an oral test,i have a debate competition and we have won in the final...before the competition,i was very excited but luckyly i was preformed good so not disappointed my group member.i was very happy because got a chance to take part in this debate,i have learned many things from there and the most happy's things is that i can preform my skill in front of many person.When finish my debate,now i try to learn drum,a very nice instrument and i like it,i will try my best to learn and hope i can preform in the concert the end of year.

...

2009-02-18T05:54:00.000-08:00

英文不是我的强项，我还是用华文来写。刚才我看过了我的补习老师的部落格，在他每个的文章里，我多多少少都会学到很多道理。我在他的补习中心补习时，不时还是会讲话;当他在骂时，我们都不理他,但有时觉得他说的话都是有道理的.记得刚才早上周会时,校长说过:我们宁愿让你在不懂事时给你骂我们一时,也不要在你懂事后诅咒我们一世.老师骂我们是因为我们还有救,如果老师不骂我们,就是放弃了我们.所以我们应该感谢我们的老师.我补习老师有一篇说有关跑步的,不是开始是在前面就一定会赢的,最重要是能坚持到最后才是赢家,就如龟兔赛跑的故事一样.我真的学了很多东西...不过还是有一个问题,"人活在这个世上短短几十年到底是为了什么?做工?玩乐?还是...?"
最后,我要说的是,老师你是我最好的老师.我会以你为我的榜样...我会成功的...
--leo--

Exam...haiz...

2009-02-18T03:01:00.000-08:00

Exam will come soon,this is the first time take exam in form four.I got some scare if i fail in this time exam.This is just a exam,however it is not same with last time.So now i will study harder than ever...I have interested in science so it will become easy when study it,but for the English and Malay have problem especially the essay>.<...I will try to speak English to my friend because my friend is expert in English,from there i have improve my English slowly per day^^.But i will sill relax so that i won't feel that so pressure and won't affect my result...just write until here...
--leo--

A new year...

2008-12-27T06:54:00.000-08:00

This is it,so fast a new year will come soon.Although the time will never stop,a year and a year has pass by,but if can use it very well,it can happen many of miracle.This is about time.
And now,is about me...just one more week school will reopen,and before it,is 30dec our PMR result will came out.But it just a result,it cannot affect me.Now,i feel some scare for my SPM,because my BM was very bad and now finding tuition.Hope i can catch up next year...
I feel very happy in this year,i know many new friend in my class and i always got gathering wif my old friend.i feel very wealth because i got many friend,and we have many unforgettable memory,so i won't forget them.
08 to 09 many things will change,and it will change better that 08(i think).But anyway,i very anticipate the coming of next year,now i got write my succeed's dairy everyday,it is a miracle book that just write something smaller i do on that day and will let me succeed for everythings,hard to believe huh?
--leo--